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the tug to pull

the patience to break it

and heal, and feel, and ache  

wonder how long it'll take 

before the realize the revolution began

 

whistle or whisper  

doesn't matter  

 

take time to wander, friend

don't forget again

i try and i try

 

no one asks to sing

 

i stopped by  

as i said i would  

i wrote some words and i'll walk on

 

blasphemy! 

rock n' roll deserves better

better hair

and better air time, too
 

do do do 

la de due

 

no one saw this coming

they were lost in their mirrors

 

i don't like this feeling 

nah, nor the whistle

 

i'm sorry, mate

it ain't so simple

 

is that right?

rock n' roll is better shared?

 

three dead trolls 

sitting by a fire

who was their god?

why did it matter?

 

"they don't like a revelator"

can i ask a question?

is that guitar solo yours or was it stolen?

 

Inside Outward

Inside Outward is my most recent songs I've created. I have been using a Korg R3 for the sounds. I recently came across a mic that plugs into the usb port on my computer. 

I was really excited to sing over some songs, but it didn't quite come as organically as I thought. I kept trying and not liking what I came up with. So I decided to throw some distortion on my voice for the beginning and the outro track.

I like the final result. It feels honest. It has an upbeat, over the top beginning and end with a dark center. The 3 songs as a whole are my attempt to share life as I feel it lately. 

There is a bounce in my step. I am working 2 jobs and selling art fairly frequently. I am falling in love. I am making more music. My art is even surprising me where it's going. 

I'm still looking for a place for Smoggie Catt and I to live. I still need to finish putting together my book "Fragmented Realities" for people to read. I still worry about climate change and politics have never been more insane.

I'm saying I'm alright. I have my fears and uncertainties, but I don't let them get the best of me.

I embrace the "awkward". I acknowledge the moment as they are and that takes keeping an unclouded perspective. 

It takes practice. It takes patience. It takes love. It takes honesty with myself and others.

I think these tunes show those waves of the soul and how I feel about life currently.

If you have a moment, give them a listen.

I'm going to quit rambling and clean up my belongings and get ready to go to work.

Be free fellow Earthlings,

-ABC

Hello Fellow Earthlings

Hello Friends,

My name is A.B. Corduroy. I started this .com/blog/whatever in 2013 when I changed the name I call myself as a way to promote a change in head space. 

As an entertainer/artist I wanted name that was more unique than my birth name. I wanted a way to track, if nothing more than for my own self, to track what is happening in my life.

It's a subtle to remind myself that self sanity and self entertainment are most important in my life.

I changed my name to A.B. Corduroy as a reminder to take life one moment at a time, A to B to C and so on. Corduroy because it's tougher than cotton and though life gets hard sometimes, but ya got to keep taking it one moment at a time. There are infinite moments happening at a given time, acknowledge that and take it one moment at a time.

I'm currently listening to Childish Gambino. It makes for good typing music.

This is my renewal to share more. 

The difference in A.B. Corduroy and the person you may have known before is I have no fucks to give. I am me, I do not pretend to be anymore. If I am to be a rockstar or successful artist than I want it to be from an open and honest space. I do not hype it up, it's all genuine.

Sometimes that is fun and exciting. Sometimes it's dark and feels helpless. I will do better at sharing all those said experiences.

For the last few months I've been homeless. I have a friend that offered a roof over my head. I am grateful for that, but meditating hard on getting Smoggie Catt and I a proper home base. 

I've also been falling in love with an amazing individual. I could ramble on that for a while. Not now though. I will not ink her name at this moment out of respect. 

rambles, rambles, rambles. I also posted some art for sale under my interweb store. I'll post more and take them down as they are sold. They are selling more frequently these days and I hope the interweb store makes that more effective. 

I need to brush my teeth and clean up my belongings so I'm going to stop typing for now.

Be free fellow earthlings,

-ABC

 

.com back online

it's been too long, but i'm back online.

  • more frequent blogging to follow. 
  • adding new art in the interweb store very soonly.
  • site needs some updating, for sure.

but now i must go to work from 5pm to 12am.

be free fellow earthling.

<3 ABC

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thin thin white light

i'm nearing a month of no blog posts.

i don't know where to begin.

espresso is essential. 

drinking first americano of the day now. 

slept in until 12 today. 

first day of my 3 days off in a row that workers were not redoing the roof above my apartment.

the night before i was out following the full moon. wow! 

if there's whiskey in your brain, there's whiskey in your veins.

i've sold a lot of art in the past month. thank you to everyone for their support, it means a whole lotta lots.

i need to go to the post office now. 

i'll try to post rambles more frequently. falling into new routines. 

be free fellow earthlings

-abc

 

 

 

__________.

will you let it carry weight?

will you drown in the lake

by the barn

in some northeastern state?

probably not

what's illogical to some

makes sense to the rest

someone said "it'll be better..."

I didn't hear the rest of the sentence

I was too stoned to focus

what's the difference in hope and ignorance?

i'm not sure yet

maybe the fear of losing __________.