Gathered all my W2's for last year's work. Now to see if Uncle Sam/Papa Trump let's me keep any of it.
Eureka!
When in doubt, sing out!
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Head Thought
Instinct is pure; fear is an urge.
Fads
...well fads they come and fads they go, but god I love that rock n' roll..."
-Modest Mouse
Rain and Cardboard
Nothing sobers me like a good rain.
Also there is something uniquely satisfying about breaking down cardboard boxes.
Cherry Blossoms
I intended to write this out a few days sooner, but if you live in Portland, Oregon and yet to notice the cherry blossoms are blooming.
2018
I believe 2018 is the year we either learn to talk it out or we'll end up blowing ourselves up...
Filled with good intent, fueled by fear we'll all become monsters...
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2017
2017 has been the most challenging, inwardly and outwardly, of my life to date.
Rather than focus on those times I'd like to take the last few moments of 2017 to give gratitude; to the trees which continually refill me with patience and perseverance and to the goddess who helped me see beyond the third dimension.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
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not quite 2018 yet
the internet is a crazy place. don't forget to localize and harmonize. this place is only secondary. #ifyawannarevolution
that being said, i go through phases with the internet since my last band ended back in Florida. If I am going to be a part of it, I keep it genuine. I do intend to engage more this upcoming year via interwebs. More posts. More rambles.
These days I am remembering espresso and internet were my first vices and dropping some of the more recent.
Starting with tobacco. It's a waste of my money and a distraction from singing out and being fully in the moment. My hands don't fidget as much. What's that about? Not cool.
I bought Smoggie Catt a "space box" for Christmas, at least that's what we're calling it. It's a diamond shaped box with all sides being cardboard scratch posts except one that she can climb in and scratch or sleep in.
I started reading 1984, it's taking me a moment to get into. Thus my typing and internetting at the moment. Maybe I had too much coffee. Either making use of all this energy while doing as the doc said and being still for few days. That's hard to do.
My friend Jackie Jones is on her way to town. She lives in Washington but we met in Portland. I've blogged about her before.
I'm going to write some words and draw on paper not web now.
Vasectomy
In less than 30 minutes I'll be getting a vasectomy. One of the most responsible decisions adult me has ever made.
I understand some people wait their whole lives for kids.
I am a wanderer and an artist. My travels and my art, written word, and music are and will always be my "kids".
You never hear about Van Gogh's son or Shakespeare's daughter. That is the importance of this decision.
Today
I was walking in the rain
It's not cold but it ain't warm
I'm layered well, though
It's hypnotic to me
Therapeutic indeed
The soggy streets and steady drizzle
Early morning mist
The fog that comforts the mountains
The leaves are mostly gone now
It is officially winter
Meteor Shower
For those who are awake and not in the know, there's a meteor shower tonight.
Peak time is 1-2am Pacific Time. Put down your cell phones and watch the sky glow.
well hello
i went over my phone's data limit which i was hot spotting to my laptop at the house, so I've really slacked in my blog writing.
Last night was my last night working for Subway. That was a very interesting adventure in a very interesting part of Portland. I am grateful for the job when I was in a dark spot and broke for money, but excited for the time I'm going to have to focus on creative endeavors.
Donald Trump is shrinking the size of two national monuments.. land... in Idaho. I still have more reading to do on said mess, but this is what I have feared the most. I hope he doesn't try to do the same in Oregon. Shit is getting more and more cray, and it's harder for me to be quiet.
Making lots of art the last weekend.
Started a book this weekend, book one of a trilogy. The book is called "Annihilation". 100 of 195 pages in. I hope to finish it up this afternoon after doing my grown up errands: gather paystubs, buy groceries, clean up the mess I've made of the kitchen, and so on.
I made another music thing. It's chaotic, but I love it. It's part of the album "Fear and Magic" I've been slowly adding songs to. It's been an experiment with making guitar sounds via the synth.
With all those words said, I'll post the song below and wander outside the coffee shop and begin the errands on the todo list.
Be free, friends. -ABC
Well Played
It's no game
There's no reason
I forgot I was dreaming
Woke up breathing
It all seemed very natural to me
To others it's living
To some it's hell
Hello.
How ya doin?
Daytime chores
And a chorus of love will surely get you moving
I saw it on the TV
They have a medicine for everything
Thanks for Giving
I fell asleep stoned silly last night, listening to the rain, letting the wind blow drip drops through the window as I lay below listening to one of my favorite artist, World's End Girlfriend.
I got out of bed about 1pm, binge drinking coffee and feeling experimental. I pulled out the synth and garageband and started making noise. Below is the final, only recorded proof of that moment that has been the last couple hours or so. I don't know much about time.
I may add more tracks to this one after said shower. I also need to wander outside because I still have not done that today.
I should shower and munch on something. I am going to my friend Alan Page's this evening and a shower would give me some focus.
The last year has been one of the most uncertain of my entire life up until now and I've been very contemplative and reflective on truly what I am thankful/grateful for.
I normally don't pay this holiday of Thanksgiving much mind, but I am taking time to really contemplative the why's of whom and what I am grateful for all week.
To those that have been part of the past year, I thank you all for the good, the bad, and damn right ugly because in the past year I have remembered and discovered a lot more than I will type out in this moment. Let the music do the rest.
Be Free Fellow Earthlings,
-ABC
one, two, three, four, so many cups of coffee
Hello Fellow Earthlings,
I bought the book, The Alchemist, about 10 days ago, finished it 3 days ago. I recommend it. I didn't like the ending, but it got my brain and heart moving in ways I appreciate.
I sang a few songs at an open mic a few blocks from my house last night. I still haven't learned fully how to simultaneously build noise on the keyboard and sing words over them.
I miss having a full band. I'd rather front a band and write words to dance along to and make noise music on the side. It's all a continual work in progress. I acknowledge I need to practice more.
I lost my mixer a little bit back due to drama not worth acknowledging in this post, but I may be in the process of getting a new mixer so I can play my synth/mic into that.
Today.. cleaned my room real good like, sorted laundry to do after work tomorrow afternoon, about to do some dishes, should probably eat some food, on my third cup of coffee, updated webstore.
Happy with the politics happening in my home state of Virginia. Change is possible.
In case you are wondering. Climate change is real and is happening.
I love my planet and it aches my heart to see what we've done and continue to do to our wonderful planet.
I don't wanna end this on a sad note, but my attention span is drifting.
I still have some cleaning and shower before going to work this evening.
Be free, ABC
do things
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I bought a new book on Friday night. The Alchemist. It's been suggested to me many times and it finally jumped out to me. So far, absolutely beautiful. Simply worded yet mystical nonetheless.
I had a very chillax weekend. There was bits of rain, but mostly clear by day. I didn't do a lot by day, but it felt good that way. Lazy, cozy days, and nights of magic and passion.
Today I had a job interview in SW Portland for a cafe by the Tram. That seems like it could be fun, fast paced work in a part of Portland that is very foreign to myself. I like new perspectives. That part of town feels like a whole different city.
Now I am finalizing these words to finish getting for work tonight, 5-11:30ish at Subway in Oldtown, Portland, Oregon. As for perspectives that place has given me some interesting thoughts on perspectives.
I posted some new art in my intereweb store. There are a lot more than need to go there. They will soon enough.
I'm loving the crisp, grey days here in Portland. So many poppin' red leaves.
I lied in my window and let the wind and rain blow in my face a few nights ago. it smelt/felt so good. i love the rain. One of the most magical elements in my reality.
Okay, that's the end of this rambling.
be free!
-ABC
Interweb Store Update
All art is original and available until purchased via Interweb Store.
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Good Morning
Sitting on the streetcar on my way to work feeling grateful and blessed for the friends in my life, for Smoggie Catt, magic, for rain and clouds, to be living in the Pacific Northwest... just to name a thing or few.
things that stuff
the rain and clouds are back in portland, oregon.
the leaves are falling fast.
those that are left are turning the most beautiful reds and yellows.
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i've been working on combing my art with words to put together a story i call "fragmented realities". not as much as i should, but i am getting back on track. i really want to share this with all of you.
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October was just as magical as I could have hoped for it to be. My birthday was on a Friday. I was with 2 of my favorite people and spent the weekend with one of my favorite people.
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I've got a place to live and working hard these days. Thus the lack of blog entries. Trying my best to be more consistent with that. There's a whole lot of art I need to add to the interweb store. There's still a lot up for purchase if anyone is interested. I'm making sales, but yet to make one via the website.
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There was a full moon last night. I was a sick, sick dog last night, but charged my magic trinkets and took in the moon's glow and feel rejuvenated today. Got up and gave my room a good cleaning this morning, washed the dishes, etc.
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That's all I have to share at the moment. Gotta get back to work to working on this book.
Be free, fellow earthlings.
-ABC