the metaphor of the cat and the box
content with the box
scratches at the box
lies in the box
at peace with the box she tore away at the walls and the flooring and lied down and slept in the box
at peace with the box
pitter patter // this is the end
i know why i am here
and somehow/somewhere along the way i gave into a fear
i have spent the last 3 hours listening/watching to live performances by Janis Joplin and The Doors
it screeches and it moans
it rambles and it spits
it is reflective. it is somber.
I am here to sing rock n roll songs
i am here to share my faults and anguish
through music. through song. through words and parables.
there is a pushing back from the ether when we find that one thing that can really fuck with the all of it
for me that is making time for routinely entertaining
for myself first and then with community
from one space to the next
time after time
i am not afraid
i can’t keep this Janis stardust in anymore
02.05.2020A
there are fragments and tangents
and all kinds of white rabbits
elephants so big they’ll fill our living room and the dining room too
there’s a metaphor in every action
a poem in the form of a crow carrying two peanuts across the road
a lullaby in the M83 album playing in the background
compelling me to wake up and wash last night’s dinner utensils
there magic in a cup of coffee
it gets me talking
it gets me walking
it gets my head thoughts wondering
there is magic in a cup of coffee
open opinion on opioides
in Life
fear
if used positively can elevate us to think deeper, listen more intently, act more precisely, and move more fluidly.
i am sitting in my living room with a whole lotta want to do’s
music, wander, create, create, create, shower, sweep, wash some dishes, and so on.
routines come easier than rituals
it’s tuesday. my favorite day of the week.
i finished three zzzmoments last night.
and now. my attention span is dwindling. gotta get to my wanna to do’s.
see you soonly interwebs.
-ABC
Monday day way
It’s been a lovely rainy day in Portland, Oregon.
I took a long walk in the rain to get coffee a few hours ago with Neutral Milk Hotel, In The Aeroplane Over The Sea and Pink Floyd, Dark Side of The Moon in my ears. They fit this weather quite well.
I saw my friend Jay Ringer play musics last nite. What an incredible human being. He plays the keys and the trumpet at the same time. I couldn’t focus to film it because I was far too entranced. Keep doing what you do, Jay. It’s incredibly inspiring.
The night sky is on the horizon. I need to clean up my homebase for a little bit.
Goodbye for now internets.
-ABC
last night and now
i did it. i got out of the bed. i paid my phone bill and i paid the .com too.
last night i had the opportunity to sing some songs // make some noise and art at Big Legrowlski. Thank you bensaid for the show. Thank you to everyone who came out to participate. I am very grateful and blessed, and i know it.
Chloe, Garret, Kim, Victor, Aaron, mage, Zachary, Christian to name a few. I couldn’t do without you.
After the show I hung out with Aaron and Kim and Aaron gave me a badass giant canvas that looks like a map of a foreign planet or earth’s lost sister.
And now I prepare mentally, emotionally for a show on February 28th at No Fun Bar. I have some ideas up my sleeves that I want… need… to make a reality. so no typing on that until the projects are more progressed.
I am going to stop typing for now and enjoy the last bits of this grey day before the sun goes down and i start doing the cleaning and ritualistic happenings that coincide with starting a new work week.
I’ll be at Anna Bannana’s Coffeehouse Thursday through Sunday from 6am to 1pm if you need some coffee or just wanna hang out. I am hanging lots of new art there. So come check it out. Maybe purchase one.
adios for now friends!
-ABC
10:30am pst
i woke up a couple times this morning.
i made a 180 degree flop. put my head in front of the window so i could smell the cool air outside.
the next thing i knew there was a kitty on my chest telling me to get my ass up
so i did and here i am now
read through the essential news headlines
impeachment trial stuff will begin soonly
last democrat debate before the iowa caucus
there’s a volcano spewing up in the Phillipines
etc etc etc etc
in my world. i need to clean up homebase and get organized. again.
i have a stack of ongoing zzzmoments that i still don’t see as finished that need completion.
well attention span is drifting and there is a shower at the end of the sentences.
be free.
-abc
laptop moment
clean and wander
clean and wander
create and break
i started the day out wandering in search of a coffee
i listened to instinct and walked east
partially because there was an active leaf blower blowing the other direction
fortunately i because of that inclining i saw my friend Ashley Perry
I wandered into the Fresh Pot inside Powell’s for a coffee and found Volume 1 of Wytches
I found the first of that comic series in a free ben of books some moments back. Thanks Greg!
The whole of a volume one and only cost me six dollars
I wandered back in the direction of the Foggy Lantern and found a copy of my favorite book, the little prince, in a language unknown to me
i think it is German
Thanks again to another free book ben
I found another coffee at the Rocking Frog Cafe
I’ve spent the next few hours reading through said comic series thing
Now I am between drawing, and cleaning, and wandering, and cleaning!
and now. a laptop moment. a moment to type out some stuff.
tame impala’s first album playing in the background
the skies grey and misty // not a lotta sun and i’m alright with it
clean. wander. draw. drink coffee. break.
ooh i need to get Smoggie Catt breakfast, and hairspray, and toothpaste, and new headphones,
something simple to keep the head distracted yet focused
music muse
music dues
laptop break is near over. there are pictures to frame for hanging at Anna Bannana’s Coffeehouse.
List to write, symbols to draw, keep the hands moving, keep the head on a goal. any goal.
simple stuff! clean the littler box! that’s another.
sing, dance, even if it’s a little bit, it’s always worth it.
-ABC
with consideration
with or without the secret worlds of yesterday will converse with the mystics of today
with or without a determined destination some will try and few will work out the wonders
one way or another whether the creeks rise or the rain falls we will find our own way
the world as we knew it is gone for now // a new channel is open and logic is not as notable as before
there is hairspray to purchase and toothpaste is also on the list of to do’s
cat food and vegetables, too
it’s lightly raining outside
Ashley and I just had lunch with Bonnie Latham at Paradox Cafe
Bonnie is a saint among muggles
I acquired new pens for drawing and writing today
There is now internet at the home place so expect more frequent rambles from this .com
less direct posts on the facebook // that site is full of wormholes i don’t dare to dabble into very long
until our next moment fellow earthlings
be free // be brave
-ABC
2020
in Life
the end of a decade
and the start of another
one full of trust and hope
a time to be stern and graceful
a time of new beginnings
and completion of ongoing projects
a time to project realities
speak truths
and
toss the nonsense
the day before christmas
it’s the day before christmas
i’ve been cleaning up homebase
thanks to everyone who came over Saturday // twas nice to see everyone in one place
tomorrow i’ll be making coffee for anyone who needs an early fix before opening presents
i’ll be around the coffeehouse 7 to 1pm
and then // i don’t really know, man
this is one of the oddest holidays for myself
i guess i’m still figuring that one out
it’s beautiful in the pacific northwest
the skies are grey and trees and moss greens are glowing all about
incomplete sentences compete for verbal consciousness
whatever that nonsense is about
finishing another americano then it’s back to lantern
wash some dishes
play some music
it’s the season of winter
where making music always feels better
i hope to have something to share soonly
to all a happy christmas
that’s all i know to write
-abc
Ugly Christmas Sweater // Pop Up Shop
I’ll be participating in a Pop Up Shop at Kelly’s Olympian this Saturday from 3:30-6:30pm.
After the shopping event will be live music from 6 bands. I don’t know all the bands playing but my friends in Lee and the Bees are the headliner that evening.
If you’re looking for a hand made Christmas presents come by and see me and everyone else making stuff and things! I hope to see you there.
Popup Shop
Starts at 3:30pm
Free!
Concert starts at 7:00pm
Performances from
Starship Infinity // Lee and the Bees // Minda Lacy // AC Sapphire
El Hurtado // Caleb and the Monsters
$8 Advance // $10 at the door // 21+
3:17
the tribe
the unit that nurtures and creates oneself
the oneself a combination of trials and errors
a peace and a love
a rage and and a flame
constant babble like yesterday’s wine
there was a time when i woke and was ready to be the world’s window
and i was better focused. the tribe was small, but the tribe was just what i wanted
and then the fox.
the fox needs near no one. we need food, sleep, and wander.
and if any of this makes sense i’ll be glad i typed it out again
because it is in my ear and in my head
every damn lullaby. every time i question why.
-ABC
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and now
acorns on the ground
weather getting colder
it’s still very dry in these parts
i’m drinking an americano with whip cream - my favorite of treats
i got up and started cleaning myself and home place
brewed up a french press and put on some instant mashed potatoes
walked around in a couple circles listening to politics and current affairs on the youtube app
i had to get out so i walked to the nearest cafe, rocking frog
i saw Silly Sam and Ken the Coffee Man
a few others as well but those are the ones making it into my current typing
i set up my synth up last night so that it’s ready to go when i feel that urge
i want to record something but i don’t know what anymore
i long for more live shows
i’ve been increasingly stretching my mouth muscles since my tooth surgery
i was reluctant to do so for the first week or so
9 days later - not counting the week or so before that
that’s some painful nonsense
and the pain pills make me feel too numb
to life as a whole - i didn’t like it
take care of your teeth, friends
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social stance
obvious
weaving new threads into old dresses
similes and overheard words
i don’t give a damn who i may make mad
this madness in my stomach is worth every interjection
caffeine makes the blood bubble
head rumble
boom
tune in / toon out
there are many narratives
they appear in words overheard
advertisements
scriptures
there is a need to wander
and a longing to sit content
a blue pill and a red
metaphor upon metaphor
resistance and escapism
uncertain what it means to be okay
okay to be insane
a madman once told me
the gods are nothing without relief
and magic is nothing without belief
i believed him and found the fifth dimension
unable to reside there and here
leads to me to frustrating situations
to see through people or to see them through
and what it means to be free
it’s a big box
a big sphere
quantum cycles
looking for the source of it all
December 2, 2019
12:00 pm
drinking a cup of espresso not made by my own hand
typing words on a laptop
making out what i will do today
last night i came home and slept from evening until 10 some number this am
too much sleep can make me weary
three days away from my coffeehouse routine
three days to make and create
there are frames that need painting
and a need to write out what’s going on in this head
first americano
I am sitting at Bare Bones Cafe.
Drinking my first americano.
Thinking thoughts.
Putting parts together.
Dissembling the nonsense.
I went back to the tooth doctor yesterday afternoon. They pulled the remaining bits of roots in there.
Holy Ouch! Thank goddess it’s out of there.
new music video
I was chased around the planet and then taken back to the dark side of the moon and played some music in Icarus Flamingo’s spaceship.
It’s an epic of a music video // mini movie. It’s a two part video.
The first part being Icarus’s tunes and the second part being a live set of my own.
Thank you for the adventure Icarus! I’m looking forward to our future adventures.
Check out Icarus’s youtube page. There are more bands to check out on his page.
Subscribe to keep up with his doings.
This thing has only just begun.
Making art with friends is what it’s all about.
I appreciate what you’re doing Icarus.
Never stop.
You can tell them you read it here first.
-ABC
yes and knot
[currently: listening to smashing pumpkins and putting together a set list for my set at The Nest tonight.]
distracted and clouded. coffee in my DNA. i may need an espresso to hohm in again.
it’s been two days of the french press. it’s good. really good, but the jitters never end.
Community what does it mean?
For me it means finding a group of people who believe in unity. that we accept everyone involved has a purpose and there does not need to hierarchy. That’s what cults are for.
I am no coconut and i don’t need walnuts to tell me what is right and what is proper.
when we quit going with the flow we are taken down by the waves.
the gods and goddesses will make their realms and magicians like me adapt and co create. Thanks Natty.
Well if good is as good as it gets i’ll do you one better. I’ll frisk the avenger and i’ll bet he’s seen a lot of danger.
I am afraid to speak up. i am not afraid to sing It louder. I am not afraid to speak up. i am not afraid no more.
well this is the end of a blog post and on to more opportune sail boats.
come on by The Nest for open mic tonight. Sign up and do your thing.
I have a set from 10-10:30pm and I would love to entertain you for a bit.
-ABC
oh it's tuesday
the best day of the week! the day that never ends and never began!
with one weasel in the back pocket of the antelope who hopped the ocean in search of a coat
i don’t know how it got there and i don’t care to talk about your speculative woes
it’s not historic until it’s written in stone
it’s not decided until they decide to let it go
follow me to the river
you don’t have to jump in
i know i won’t
it’s not what i do
and i’m just as furious as you about this fever sweeping the banks of the Nile
well if there is one thing i am certain of
i’m certain of this little acrobat and the magician that followed them back to the lab
they think they’re clever and they think they know what is best
but i know better then them
rock n roll will save our souls
just as it did
and always has
and it will again