rainy daze

in , ,

the good

the bad

and the hungry

all want the same thing

dignity, atonomy, and community

i am listening to the local jazz station and there is a beautiful song playing

very soulful

the song had… it just ended… the song had clips of Martin Luther King Jr mixed in and i heard him say something i have never heard before.

the words:

“we in america have a unique opportunity in history to have a blood-less revolution…”

there may have been more. that’s what i took note of.

less voilence and more creative protest are a must

leave it and run

in

I saw people running

“leave it!” they yelled to their companion with a tail.

sitting stil and sharing what eye see is difficult.

it wasn’t before.

a lot is an answer.

vague and honest.

rambling is an excercise.

it needs to be done routinely to make it work.

it is entertainment to me. so i endeavor once again to share my experiences on this .com .

what you see is what you get

I have been listening to the album “Mimicking Birds” a lot lately.

There are some absolutely powerful lyrics layered in it.

A.B. Corduroy endorsed.

Ashley Klump and I acquired some animal skeletons yesterday. I’ll post more pictures of those at a later time. I am still learning some of their origins, names, mythologies. Animals tell us lots of secrets if we are willing to listen.

I talk to the crows a lot. Those grumpy ole fucks see a lot. Don’t piss them off. Get to know them. Move along.

I am grateful for where I am in my life. I am grateful for my friend group, my home, my lover, my cat companions, I am grateful for you, whoever you are reading these words.

The more we get together // The happier we will be

Words have a lot of power and decisions hold power.

Give gratitude aloud often. Shift the narrative.

We are people // We are not data

we are not an algorithm

Until the next moment.

Live. Dream. Wander in Between.

Sleepwalk with me.

Look for the symbols. Listen to language. And don’t forget about body language. It is most important.

-ABC

Tuesday 05122020

It can be very difficult for myself to focus long enough to type what’s going through my head to post a simple blog .com update day to day or even a couple times a day.

The truth being I have never had so many thoughts going through my head as I have until the last couple months of existence.

I sit and listen to full conversations and sometimes even talk out full dialoges but so rarely does it make it into a typed bog. I use instagram videos to ramble and I stil carry a notebook/journal to leave my bones.

I still have a full time job making coffee for people. I am still writing. I have sold 28 of the 33 copies of my book “Fragmented Realities (Rambles of a Madman)” and I am very grateful to everyone who has been apart of that process.

I still draw in symbols/zzzwalking a little bit all the time and post those to the instagram almost daily.

My overall goal is stil to focus on my music. There’s a sway to say and a sway to stay things only music can say properly.

a longing for blogging

feet up on the coffee table

rest computer on the legs

head back

breathe in // breathe out

this time not to be distracted by over thinking it

* * *

i’ve been learning from // noticing the bluejays these days

David Bowie has a lyric “just like that blue bird you know I’ll be free” on his last album

I know a lot is uncertain now for many people, families, and machines

Here is the thing I believe in my reality and I encourage you to co create accordingly

i believe for several decades we have been going and going // more and more // without totems // without a source

this paradigm shift // the apocalypse // whatever you // i // we need to call it

i can understand and feel everyone’s uncertainty for dollars

i encourage all of us to think within // remember your self

when we all start working again

it will not be the same as before // what is it your self longs to do // that enables a healthy existence

and gives back to the greater consciousness

while societies are on hold and economies are being challenged to redirect

the planet is seeing a great recess

a much needed breath

these events challenge us of organic material with stars in our eyes

if we take time to take time // we can discover new solutions with less stress for every being // in every realm

-ABC

Fragmented Realities (Rambles of a Madman)

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I have been working on making this “poetry” book a reality for almost 4 years now.

I began writing the words and drawing the images between 2016 and 2017 during a very dark and yet enlightening moment of my life. There is a lot to be learned from darkness. There is a lot to learn from the light. It takes all of it to make us a whole.

I believe it is the bridge between the zzzmoments I draw almost constantly and the songs I sing out at rock n roll shows. There is a bridge between symblols and words/language and it is a magical realm to wander into.

I printed 33 copies because I find 33 a magical number and I am 33 years old at the moment.

I am selling them for $30 each and as of this blog post 7 copies have found homes. Limited originals from the book are also available for $50 to anyone interested. (I will post more on that later.)

If you are interested in a copy they will be available when I will be singing and making noise this Friday at No Fun Bar (9pm) and this Sunday at Ranger Station (7pm).

If you do not live in town, comment below, send me an email, reach out to me on social media and we’ll make it work.

I will eventually be selling the books and the original art from the “Fragmented Realities” via my interweb store.

Truthfully it’s been so long since I utilized the .com store that I am in the midst of working out some kinks/links to make it work properly.

I am excited this story. I am excited to play a couple shows this weekend!!

i love entertaining! i love singing! i love creating!

There are many words that I would to say right now.

I need close up this blog post because I need a shower. I need to clean up home. My friend Cody Trespalacios that I have known since 3rd grade is coming to town tomorrow. It will be his first time in Oregon.

Okay my legs are bouncing and it’s hard to focus so it’s time to brew more coffee and shower.

Talk to you soonly fellow earthlings!

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coffee is good. rock n roll is better.

in ,

i cleaned up a whole lot. deep scrubbing in the kitchen and all. enough so that it smelt like bleach.

it’s been a sunny day. it’s still very chilly but that’s okay.

i had an americano from the rocking frog and sat on the front porch in a sun spot and read more of the Janis Joplin biography that I started last week. Thank you for the coffee Nol!

I started a french press at home. I practiced my restraint. I did not drink the whole thing.

The last time I finished the press I was too hyped up to finish any sensible task.

I got my synth set up and started jamming a little bit. I find it easier to be creative when my space is organized.

I have two shows coming up!

Friday, February 28th, at No Fun Bar

Sunday, March 1st, at Ranger Station

I have some exciting news to share about the upcoming shows and I will do so when I have photos to go along with those words.

I am grateful for opportunities coming up to share my rock n roll songs. I am working to play more than i have ever before this year. I hope you’ll be a part of it.

-ABC

if you saw the look on their faces you'd know when to look away

in

green chair

deerhunter on the radio player // album: cryptograms

woke up at 9:30am // stepped out for a smoke and check the mail

i had a valentine’s day card from Ashley’s parents

unexpected and fuzzy feels. thank you Craig and Kristie.

Fell back into sleep realm and woke up at 4:30pm

wandered down to find coffee at Bare Bones

helped Ashley vacuum out FDAK

And Now: Deerhunter on the radio player // album: cryptograms

spontaneous cleaning tasks intertwined with creative spurts and now computer words

be blessed. be free. be aware. be.

-ABC

the box and the cat

the metaphor of the cat and the box

content with the box

scratches at the box

lies in the box

at peace with the box she tore away at the walls and the flooring and lied down and slept in the box

at peace with the box

pitter patter // this is the end

i know why i am here

and somehow/somewhere along the way i gave into a fear

i have spent the last 3 hours listening/watching to live performances by Janis Joplin and The Doors

it screeches and it moans

it rambles and it spits

it is reflective. it is somber.

I am here to sing rock n roll songs

i am here to share my faults and anguish

through music. through song. through words and parables.

there is a pushing back from the ether when we find that one thing that can really fuck with the all of it

for me that is making time for routinely entertaining

for myself first and then with community

from one space to the next

time after time

i am not afraid

i can’t keep this Janis stardust in anymore

02.05.2020A

there are fragments and tangents

and all kinds of white rabbits

elephants so big they’ll fill our living room and the dining room too

there’s a metaphor in every action

a poem in the form of a crow carrying two peanuts across the road

a lullaby in the M83 album playing in the background

compelling me to wake up and wash last night’s dinner utensils

there magic in a cup of coffee

it gets me talking

it gets me walking

it gets my head thoughts wondering

there is magic in a cup of coffee

Monday day way

in , ,

It’s been a lovely rainy day in Portland, Oregon.

I took a long walk in the rain to get coffee a few hours ago with Neutral Milk Hotel, In The Aeroplane Over The Sea and Pink Floyd, Dark Side of The Moon in my ears. They fit this weather quite well.

I saw my friend Jay Ringer play musics last nite. What an incredible human being. He plays the keys and the trumpet at the same time. I couldn’t focus to film it because I was far too entranced. Keep doing what you do, Jay. It’s incredibly inspiring.

The night sky is on the horizon. I need to clean up my homebase for a little bit.

Goodbye for now internets.

-ABC

last night and now

i did it. i got out of the bed. i paid my phone bill and i paid the .com too.

last night i had the opportunity to sing some songs // make some noise and art at Big Legrowlski. Thank you bensaid for the show. Thank you to everyone who came out to participate. I am very grateful and blessed, and i know it.

Chloe, Garret, Kim, Victor, Aaron, mage, Zachary, Christian to name a few. I couldn’t do without you.

After the show I hung out with Aaron and Kim and Aaron gave me a badass giant canvas that looks like a map of a foreign planet or earth’s lost sister.

And now I prepare mentally, emotionally for a show on February 28th at No Fun Bar. I have some ideas up my sleeves that I want… need… to make a reality. so no typing on that until the projects are more progressed.

I am going to stop typing for now and enjoy the last bits of this grey day before the sun goes down and i start doing the cleaning and ritualistic happenings that coincide with starting a new work week.

I’ll be at Anna Bannana’s Coffeehouse Thursday through Sunday from 6am to 1pm if you need some coffee or just wanna hang out. I am hanging lots of new art there. So come check it out. Maybe purchase one.

adios for now friends!

-ABC

10:30am pst

i woke up a couple times this morning.

i made a 180 degree flop. put my head in front of the window so i could smell the cool air outside.

the next thing i knew there was a kitty on my chest telling me to get my ass up

so i did and here i am now

read through the essential news headlines

impeachment trial stuff will begin soonly

last democrat debate before the iowa caucus

there’s a volcano spewing up in the Phillipines

etc etc etc etc

in my world. i need to clean up homebase and get organized. again.

i have a stack of ongoing zzzmoments that i still don’t see as finished that need completion.

well attention span is drifting and there is a shower at the end of the sentences.

be free.

-abc

laptop moment

clean and wander

clean and wander

create and break

i started the day out wandering in search of a coffee

i listened to instinct and walked east

partially because there was an active leaf blower blowing the other direction

fortunately i because of that inclining i saw my friend Ashley Perry

I wandered into the Fresh Pot inside Powell’s for a coffee and found Volume 1 of Wytches

I found the first of that comic series in a free ben of books some moments back. Thanks Greg!

The whole of a volume one and only cost me six dollars

I wandered back in the direction of the Foggy Lantern and found a copy of my favorite book, the little prince, in a language unknown to me

i think it is German

Thanks again to another free book ben

I found another coffee at the Rocking Frog Cafe

I’ve spent the next few hours reading through said comic series thing

Now I am between drawing, and cleaning, and wandering, and cleaning!

and now. a laptop moment. a moment to type out some stuff.

tame impala’s first album playing in the background

the skies grey and misty // not a lotta sun and i’m alright with it

clean. wander. draw. drink coffee. break.

ooh i need to get Smoggie Catt breakfast, and hairspray, and toothpaste, and new headphones,

something simple to keep the head distracted yet focused

music muse

music dues

laptop break is near over. there are pictures to frame for hanging at Anna Bannana’s Coffeehouse.

List to write, symbols to draw, keep the hands moving, keep the head on a goal. any goal.

simple stuff! clean the littler box! that’s another.

sing, dance, even if it’s a little bit, it’s always worth it.

-ABC

with consideration

with or without the secret worlds of yesterday will converse with the mystics of today

with or without a determined destination some will try and few will work out the wonders

one way or another whether the creeks rise or the rain falls we will find our own way

the world as we knew it is gone for now // a new channel is open and logic is not as notable as before

there is hairspray to purchase and toothpaste is also on the list of to do’s

cat food and vegetables, too

it’s lightly raining outside

Ashley and I just had lunch with Bonnie Latham at Paradox Cafe

Bonnie is a saint among muggles

I acquired new pens for drawing and writing today

There is now internet at the home place so expect more frequent rambles from this .com

less direct posts on the facebook // that site is full of wormholes i don’t dare to dabble into very long

until our next moment fellow earthlings

be free // be brave

-ABC

2020

in

the end of a decade

and the start of another

one full of trust and hope

a time to be stern and graceful

a time of new beginnings

and completion of ongoing projects

a time to project realities

speak truths

and

toss the nonsense